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Of differing kinds, Anya has started taking little mini steps so very cute.  Won’t be too long before she takes proper steps!

I am also taking baby steps. I am inspired by so many people both irl and in the blogging and forum world, people who are making a difference in their live which impacts everyone.  It can be so very overwhelming looking at the big picture, and looking at what I want to eventually achieve, I need to take it slowly.

These are the things I want to accomplish over the next month or so:

• Buy a bokashi bucket, I cringe each time I throw food waste into the bin
• Buy some seeds and get them ready to plant
• Dig up some dead plants in the back garden and make space for some vegies, get the soil ready for planting.
• Buy and plant a passionfruit vine . mmmm yum
• Buy some citrus trees to have in pots

A blog I have been reading of late that is just SO inspiring is Towards Sustainability go there! Be inspired

It had been a while since I last cried.  At first I thought it had been when Dad died, but talking to Damien it was my last birthday, the first birthday since meeting Dad that I hadn’t receieved a phone call from him.

I have been feeling lost lately, lost and fragile, like at any moment I might shatter, dissolve into tears.

After talking to two wonderful women yesterday in person, and chatting to friends online I have been able to face my ‘problem’ (for want of a better word), tonight I talked to Damien and was able to cry, I feel cleansed and so much lighter.  When I was menstruating (my cycles haven’t yet returned since Anya was born) I would have a cleansing cry every cycle when my moods sunk into their low, I haven’t had those regular cleansing cries so I think it has been building up.

I have been feeling so many things and needing to be  nurtured.  I am going to start nurturing  myself.  Not spending my nights sitting here randomly clicking away, but instead reading, reading for ME, so not reading parenting books etc  but reading books that interest me for other reasons, that invigorate my brain or help me to go off to a fantasy world.  I am going to take baths, lovely deep warm baths with essential oils and candles, but most importantly of all .. I am going to BREATHE.. just breathe

Just some photos till I can gather my thoughts enough to do a proper post

Hooray!

She slept from 11-5.30 and woke up MUCH happier

My baby is back *dances with joy*

Just to prove it a photo taken by Betty using iSight (Betty is my Mac)